I have spent the last year of my life believing that there was something that I was meant for things far greater then my mind could realistically comprehend. Yet, my mind has the tendency to wander in places it is not really meant to go. In this current post, my utterly incongruent thoughts about the relationship I have, to what I see around me, and what actually exists. Ill try and be quick, but I highly doubt anybody is going be in the mood or proper state of reality to comprehend this.
Stopgaps
I want to begin by saying, I am not someone you will like, and that is to say, I am not someone one can expect to agree with. I am someone who does not believe that existence is limited by psychological barriers but by psychological impediments. We take stopgaps to everything we do. Even though we are, theoretically, capable of far more then we actually do, the little things get in the way.
I guess that’s one of my fundamental flaws, I know that I have these stopgaps and yet I do nothing about them, I let them feed into what I am and what I become. Allowing it to consume my existence in the most minute and insignificantly significant ways, that is leads me to believe that I was only put here to fumble over myself and nothing else. For it seems that all acts that I have ever attempted to perform have either ended how they were supposed to with these “stopgaps,” or occurred slightly different then they were intended to.
Has always made me cringe thinking about what I could do if didn’t think things over a million times over in my head, convoluting everything that I would hope to achieve. Relationships, for friends or otherwise, have taken their toll on what I believe myself capable of.
That is why I need to become someone who takes the key aspects of a problem and uses the most important aspects of it to make a decision on it. I want to become the person who looks at a situation and reacts on if with my first and most important thought. It will be tough, but knowing what ive been able to do in the past it, it should be interesting.
Okay so this has already taken too long, so I will continue this later, and turn this into a series.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Friday, February 19, 2010
the oft delayed review- modern warfare 2
so i haven't used this thing as somewhere to post any reviews yet, but now seems like an alright place to start, three months after it comes out.
Originally published in Knight news December issue.
Modern Warfare 2, the sequel to the 13 million selling 2007 release Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare, had a lot to live up to. The original had a tight and well passed single-player campaign that took, the character all over the eastern hemisphere, and had some of the best action set pieces in any game of that year. On top of that It had one of the best and most addictive multiplayer experiences, that many other games have gone on to ape and improve on for the most part. So it was no wonder the developers, Infinity ward kept the game on the down low until they could show us its full potential, and well… it truly is fantastic.
The game itself is slightly different now, it still has the single player and multiplayer campaign, but Infinity Ward also took the liberty of adding a third element, that can be played solo or with friends; Spec-ops. Spec-op is for the most part a co-op campaign in the vain of the first modern warfare’s, “mile high club” level. It takes different situations from the single player campaigns and pins you and a friend against some obscene odds at points. With missions that look like the sniper mission of the first game and others having one player on the ground fighting through enemies, while the other is in the gunner seat of an AC-130 gunship, providing cover fire and all around raining hell from the sky. This mode allows the player to cleanse their palates of the constant viciousness of multiplayer and the sheer ludicrous nature of the single player.
If there was a game with the title of game that is most ripped from the headlines, it would have been the Modern Warfare. It took elements of our societies “war’s on terror”, and by putting them in a game that had you specifically seeking out “terrorists” it really gave you shock when one of that characters had a nuke blow up in his face and die a painful death while you had him crawling out of a crashed helicopter, all in first person mode. So it wasn’t surprising when this one took some of the more out there moments of the original and made them looks like romantic comedy. Modern warfare 2 does things that will shock and awe, because it is straight up controversial with some of the events that it displays you or allows you to do, because of this it prompts you twice that you might find some stuff controversial, making it something really adult as opposed to something completely associated with children.
I wont discuss story too much, because there are so many little things that it would seem unfair to those who want to experience it for themselves. All I will say is the movies Red Dawn and The Rock come to mind at multiple points in the movie…err game and that it takes place 5 years after the events of the first. It also takes the concept of a plan going painfully wrong with a full-blown invasion on of the United States and its capitol. As well the story, much like the previous games puts you in the role of different characters throughout, not surprisingly, a few end up with their untimely demise. That’s all ready giving up too much of the story, but it really is a little over the top, and not as grounded as the first one which had allowed people to believe its madness to a degree, this just turns it into an action movie, with a Michael Bay-esque instances.
The game-play however, much like the first is solid and tight. The controls are spot on, and the sequences that don’t have you just shooting are very cleverly done and fun as well. The mission variety keeps things moving, fast, and with out real hiccups, though some vehicle instances may feel a bit rickety, with stiff controls and odd aiming, but they last for mere moments if for less then 3 or 4 minutes. The environments are varied greatly, with your character jumping from multiple places around the globe, like Rio de Janeiro, Afghanistan, and other locations that would give away far too much about the story. All in all though, the single player has an excellent story, though a little bananas at points, is super fun to play, though anything higher then normal for non experienced players will have you throwing controllers because three enemies some how can throw twelve grenades at you with two hands; and it gets the action game concept right without diluting it with fluff.
Now multiplayer in the last few years has become the only thing that gives people reasons to go back to games. The original Modern warfare set industry standards for people going back to play a game over and over with its ability to bring players back to it because of its innovative game-play and leveling, giving the player the whole, “ill only play for five more minutes” syndrome. Modern warfare 2 continues with that tradition, by adding new load out combination's, kill streak bonus’s and death streaks, for players who are not as endowed at the game as the 13 year old who has already prestige, within two days of its release and killed you with a knife from half a map away, followed by calling you some sort of derogatory term.
These streaks are what make up the majority of the changes in multiplayer; there are long lists of things you can change about these streaks, which, in the first game were small and fairly limited. While you could scan the map call in a UAV or an air strikes, in this one you can do all those, along with call in a predator strike, control a predator drone, control an AC-130 gunship, and with a 25 kill streak dropping a tactical nuke, instantly ending the game and the person who dropped it, or their team automatically win the match. Preposterous you say, no one is that good that quick, well, as it so happens in the games that this reviewer played I had two separate nukes drop on me in two separate maps. The reason they are able to get these kill streaks is that this game controls and plays exactly like the original, so ever person who played the original over the last two years will instantly be almost too proficient at this game, killing you with grenade tags that seem almost impossible.
The death streaks are Infinity wards way of dealing with the never-ending cycle of spawn- death-spawn-death by giving players who have constantly gotten killed the ability to wither stay alive for seconds after their death to fire off some more shots, take the load out of the person who killed you, or in classic modern warfare fashion, martyrdom, where you drop a live grenade after your death. Though you hope to never have to use these, it helps when you are a casual multiplayer participant, like myself.
The game features the standard death match team, death match; capture the flag, domination, and something that no one expected, third person-mode. This mode allows for the over the shoulders running and gunning, which actually breaks the game for the most part, because the camera movement becomes all about spotting things before they should actually be in view, it loses most of its “fun.” The other modes, in first person, are still fun and addictive, not succumbing to the usual tropes of just copying and pasting, because of the streaks and perks that are available to you.
The game as a whole is an excellent experience, and absolutely worth the price tag, even the 149.99 price tag that I paid for the prestige edition, which contains a pair of functioning night vision goggles, which for the price tag are really a good solid goggles that will allow you to stare at the raccoons in your backyard to your hearts content. The game is all around well developed and well made, with a few discrepancies that would spoil the stories plot which could be a Bay movie on its own. It will keep you busy for a long while, whether it is, the single player campaign, the spec ops missions with your friends, or shooting/ blowing people up in the online multiplayer.
A
Originally published in Knight news December issue.
Modern Warfare 2, the sequel to the 13 million selling 2007 release Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare, had a lot to live up to. The original had a tight and well passed single-player campaign that took, the character all over the eastern hemisphere, and had some of the best action set pieces in any game of that year. On top of that It had one of the best and most addictive multiplayer experiences, that many other games have gone on to ape and improve on for the most part. So it was no wonder the developers, Infinity ward kept the game on the down low until they could show us its full potential, and well… it truly is fantastic.
The game itself is slightly different now, it still has the single player and multiplayer campaign, but Infinity Ward also took the liberty of adding a third element, that can be played solo or with friends; Spec-ops. Spec-op is for the most part a co-op campaign in the vain of the first modern warfare’s, “mile high club” level. It takes different situations from the single player campaigns and pins you and a friend against some obscene odds at points. With missions that look like the sniper mission of the first game and others having one player on the ground fighting through enemies, while the other is in the gunner seat of an AC-130 gunship, providing cover fire and all around raining hell from the sky. This mode allows the player to cleanse their palates of the constant viciousness of multiplayer and the sheer ludicrous nature of the single player.
If there was a game with the title of game that is most ripped from the headlines, it would have been the Modern Warfare. It took elements of our societies “war’s on terror”, and by putting them in a game that had you specifically seeking out “terrorists” it really gave you shock when one of that characters had a nuke blow up in his face and die a painful death while you had him crawling out of a crashed helicopter, all in first person mode. So it wasn’t surprising when this one took some of the more out there moments of the original and made them looks like romantic comedy. Modern warfare 2 does things that will shock and awe, because it is straight up controversial with some of the events that it displays you or allows you to do, because of this it prompts you twice that you might find some stuff controversial, making it something really adult as opposed to something completely associated with children.
I wont discuss story too much, because there are so many little things that it would seem unfair to those who want to experience it for themselves. All I will say is the movies Red Dawn and The Rock come to mind at multiple points in the movie…err game and that it takes place 5 years after the events of the first. It also takes the concept of a plan going painfully wrong with a full-blown invasion on of the United States and its capitol. As well the story, much like the previous games puts you in the role of different characters throughout, not surprisingly, a few end up with their untimely demise. That’s all ready giving up too much of the story, but it really is a little over the top, and not as grounded as the first one which had allowed people to believe its madness to a degree, this just turns it into an action movie, with a Michael Bay-esque instances.
The game-play however, much like the first is solid and tight. The controls are spot on, and the sequences that don’t have you just shooting are very cleverly done and fun as well. The mission variety keeps things moving, fast, and with out real hiccups, though some vehicle instances may feel a bit rickety, with stiff controls and odd aiming, but they last for mere moments if for less then 3 or 4 minutes. The environments are varied greatly, with your character jumping from multiple places around the globe, like Rio de Janeiro, Afghanistan, and other locations that would give away far too much about the story. All in all though, the single player has an excellent story, though a little bananas at points, is super fun to play, though anything higher then normal for non experienced players will have you throwing controllers because three enemies some how can throw twelve grenades at you with two hands; and it gets the action game concept right without diluting it with fluff.
Now multiplayer in the last few years has become the only thing that gives people reasons to go back to games. The original Modern warfare set industry standards for people going back to play a game over and over with its ability to bring players back to it because of its innovative game-play and leveling, giving the player the whole, “ill only play for five more minutes” syndrome. Modern warfare 2 continues with that tradition, by adding new load out combination's, kill streak bonus’s and death streaks, for players who are not as endowed at the game as the 13 year old who has already prestige, within two days of its release and killed you with a knife from half a map away, followed by calling you some sort of derogatory term.
These streaks are what make up the majority of the changes in multiplayer; there are long lists of things you can change about these streaks, which, in the first game were small and fairly limited. While you could scan the map call in a UAV or an air strikes, in this one you can do all those, along with call in a predator strike, control a predator drone, control an AC-130 gunship, and with a 25 kill streak dropping a tactical nuke, instantly ending the game and the person who dropped it, or their team automatically win the match. Preposterous you say, no one is that good that quick, well, as it so happens in the games that this reviewer played I had two separate nukes drop on me in two separate maps. The reason they are able to get these kill streaks is that this game controls and plays exactly like the original, so ever person who played the original over the last two years will instantly be almost too proficient at this game, killing you with grenade tags that seem almost impossible.
The death streaks are Infinity wards way of dealing with the never-ending cycle of spawn- death-spawn-death by giving players who have constantly gotten killed the ability to wither stay alive for seconds after their death to fire off some more shots, take the load out of the person who killed you, or in classic modern warfare fashion, martyrdom, where you drop a live grenade after your death. Though you hope to never have to use these, it helps when you are a casual multiplayer participant, like myself.
The game features the standard death match team, death match; capture the flag, domination, and something that no one expected, third person-mode. This mode allows for the over the shoulders running and gunning, which actually breaks the game for the most part, because the camera movement becomes all about spotting things before they should actually be in view, it loses most of its “fun.” The other modes, in first person, are still fun and addictive, not succumbing to the usual tropes of just copying and pasting, because of the streaks and perks that are available to you.
The game as a whole is an excellent experience, and absolutely worth the price tag, even the 149.99 price tag that I paid for the prestige edition, which contains a pair of functioning night vision goggles, which for the price tag are really a good solid goggles that will allow you to stare at the raccoons in your backyard to your hearts content. The game is all around well developed and well made, with a few discrepancies that would spoil the stories plot which could be a Bay movie on its own. It will keep you busy for a long while, whether it is, the single player campaign, the spec ops missions with your friends, or shooting/ blowing people up in the online multiplayer.
A
Monday, January 11, 2010
the Films list.
Movies are not a tough topic for me to discuss, the medium affects me like no other. As cliché as that sounds it is 1truer then I can ever describe in words, which I am afraid say, my skills do not allow me to do. Alas, I give you this list of the movies that made me, think, cry, laugh, widen my eyes to awe inspiration, and all around entertain me. These are but a few films that I feel deserve recognition.
Where the Wild things are
This is the reason I watch movies. This is not a movie, for it is an emotional tour de force, aimed like a scud missile to the heart. It reminds you about what childhood is and what you forget as you get older. It is also an apt look at the way our society functions, in a childish and immature manner, unable to become what it needs to in the midst of change, instead choosing to work around change like it is some sort of unchanging landmass that would take a millennia just to climb. It also made me cry like the little boy the movie made me feel I was, because it was so beautiful in its execution. I can give no higher praise to a movie, other then it has changed me- for the better.
James Cameron’s Avatar
This movie was a late bloomer on this list; it had a lot of hype surrounding it, not necessarily positive. Yet alas the existence of this film has changed my outlook on films from now on, no not because it was a 3-d explosion of awesomeness (though it certainly was) but it was what I have sought from films for a long time, a fully realized world of a existence. Though most movies are capable of creating a new world that has been inhabited by the existence of new beings, they are often diluted by the existence, or lack thereof of, imagination. Yet, the director, James Cameron, took distinct care to realize that avatar was not going to exist unless it had it self realized, and that is what avatar is a world, in known to all unless seen in this film, and felt by the audience.
Inglorious Basterds
Well, how could one of my lists be complete without a Quentin Tarantino? It couldn’t, honestly. Its was spaghetti Western meets a revenge thriller, according to everyone, but for me it was the perfect blend of ironic and quick witted dialogue, that honestly created a feeling of the giggles throughout and made giddy with excitement to see what would happen next because it was not a formulaic storyline with the long and drawn out end of the second world war. In stead it opted for the quick no holds barred, “ What the fuck just happened” that made fall head over heels in love with this film.
(500) Days of Summer
I should put this out there: I am sucker for a good love story, even when it’s not a love story. When a movie is able to put into perspective that a man is incapable of understanding that they (we) will never understand what the concepts of fate are or how they can correlate to our understanding of the opposite sex. It was poignant and ironic, in all the right ways, legitimately making it one of my favorite films ever, not tops but certainly around there.
The hurt Locker
Since I am a glutton for hyperbole, I would like to display my complete and utter admiration for “the hurt locker.” Its one of those films that has a contemporary plotl that is more important then most real life article written by the mainstream news outlets regarding a degenerative war that just keep spitting at those who participate in it. It is well made, entertaining and all around a vast and kind look at what today’s veteran has dealt with and the difference between those who do it because they have no other choice, and those who do it because everyone else doesn’t want to and see it as a moral obligation or a description of how they can do nothing else.
Moon
Same Rockwell alone in this film makes it phenomenal. Moon’s storyline and excellent progression of the storyline makes it wonderful and frightening all while looking at a bland future where life is expendable with the a document.
Honorable mentions:
The Princess and the Frog
District 9
Star Trek
Watchmen
An Education
Up in the Air
Where the Wild things are
This is the reason I watch movies. This is not a movie, for it is an emotional tour de force, aimed like a scud missile to the heart. It reminds you about what childhood is and what you forget as you get older. It is also an apt look at the way our society functions, in a childish and immature manner, unable to become what it needs to in the midst of change, instead choosing to work around change like it is some sort of unchanging landmass that would take a millennia just to climb. It also made me cry like the little boy the movie made me feel I was, because it was so beautiful in its execution. I can give no higher praise to a movie, other then it has changed me- for the better.
James Cameron’s Avatar
This movie was a late bloomer on this list; it had a lot of hype surrounding it, not necessarily positive. Yet alas the existence of this film has changed my outlook on films from now on, no not because it was a 3-d explosion of awesomeness (though it certainly was) but it was what I have sought from films for a long time, a fully realized world of a existence. Though most movies are capable of creating a new world that has been inhabited by the existence of new beings, they are often diluted by the existence, or lack thereof of, imagination. Yet, the director, James Cameron, took distinct care to realize that avatar was not going to exist unless it had it self realized, and that is what avatar is a world, in known to all unless seen in this film, and felt by the audience.
Inglorious Basterds
Well, how could one of my lists be complete without a Quentin Tarantino? It couldn’t, honestly. Its was spaghetti Western meets a revenge thriller, according to everyone, but for me it was the perfect blend of ironic and quick witted dialogue, that honestly created a feeling of the giggles throughout and made giddy with excitement to see what would happen next because it was not a formulaic storyline with the long and drawn out end of the second world war. In stead it opted for the quick no holds barred, “ What the fuck just happened” that made fall head over heels in love with this film.
(500) Days of Summer
I should put this out there: I am sucker for a good love story, even when it’s not a love story. When a movie is able to put into perspective that a man is incapable of understanding that they (we) will never understand what the concepts of fate are or how they can correlate to our understanding of the opposite sex. It was poignant and ironic, in all the right ways, legitimately making it one of my favorite films ever, not tops but certainly around there.
The hurt Locker
Since I am a glutton for hyperbole, I would like to display my complete and utter admiration for “the hurt locker.” Its one of those films that has a contemporary plotl that is more important then most real life article written by the mainstream news outlets regarding a degenerative war that just keep spitting at those who participate in it. It is well made, entertaining and all around a vast and kind look at what today’s veteran has dealt with and the difference between those who do it because they have no other choice, and those who do it because everyone else doesn’t want to and see it as a moral obligation or a description of how they can do nothing else.
Moon
Same Rockwell alone in this film makes it phenomenal. Moon’s storyline and excellent progression of the storyline makes it wonderful and frightening all while looking at a bland future where life is expendable with the a document.
Honorable mentions:
The Princess and the Frog
District 9
Star Trek
Watchmen
An Education
Up in the Air
Sunday, January 10, 2010
i return for no particularly good reason.
What can I say that I already haven’t stated multiple times without looking back on it and saying, “you dumb mother fucker, what the hell were you thinking?”.
So, I’ll write this now to quell my own idiosyncrasies, for which I have many. I am unable to grasp the true nature of existence aside from, to quote Alan Moore’s character the Comedian, “Its all a fucking Joke!” because as it would seem the weight of the world it exponentially heavier then the weight that I have succumbed to, on my body.
That is enough just to keep me satisfied for the moment, for I have to listen to testimony and decide someone’s fate in few hours. That is the price I have to pay to uphold this inconsistent and corrupt democracy charges me with at this current moment. Sigh, it is not fair.
This year is looking to make me want to scream louder then any previous, and it has just begun, huzzah!
So, I’ll write this now to quell my own idiosyncrasies, for which I have many. I am unable to grasp the true nature of existence aside from, to quote Alan Moore’s character the Comedian, “Its all a fucking Joke!” because as it would seem the weight of the world it exponentially heavier then the weight that I have succumbed to, on my body.
That is enough just to keep me satisfied for the moment, for I have to listen to testimony and decide someone’s fate in few hours. That is the price I have to pay to uphold this inconsistent and corrupt democracy charges me with at this current moment. Sigh, it is not fair.
This year is looking to make me want to scream louder then any previous, and it has just begun, huzzah!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Better then It looks...
What am I? It is a question I keep asking myself. I am left speechless in trying to discuss its ramifications, and what I might reveal about myself, to myself, in discussing it. I shall broach this topic today because I am on the brink of crying due to the things that this world is capable of doing. From the geo political situation of our society; to the ever dumb-ing down of what our society teaches its youth.
I, am currently watching a movie that is making me think about the decisions I’ve made in my life and how grateful I am that I have made some decision’s over others. For I may have done some revolting things over the years, which still to this day, cut deeper then any knife could. Yet it makes me think more and more about who I am, and what I’m capable of doing for society. I can change it for the better, give it something that it deserves, and give it a hope that I so want society to so desperately have. Yet alas it is something that I need to focus my life on, and my life has always been a mishmash of me being unable to motivate myself to do anything productive.
This isn’t a blog for me anymore, its something understand why I do the things I do. Mainly because I cant do it on my own. I don’t do it to understand myself better but to understand how I can be understood. Which seems like a anomaly in an of itself, because if someone else can understand me, then I have become a victim of a society that neglects itself enough that it can be understood more than it can be identified.
Again, this no longer a blog about me spitting my writing out for the sake of writing, cause I haven’t put a single game review up, but if you could only see my saved folder, and all the crap that I have in there. The simplest answer to the gaming question is that its really something near and dear to me and I can’t let it become something that I really get bored with.
On the musical tip I will probably be writing more about the songs that have made me feel something over the last 5 months, yes since the end of last semester. Why, because this summer was something special for me, not exactly sure what that special something was, but it gave me something to look forward to, in the coming future.
Song’s of the moment
“Countdown”- Phoenix, Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix
“Wolcott”- Vampire Weekend, Vampire Weekend
“In My Sleep”- Joe Budden, The Padded Room
I, am currently watching a movie that is making me think about the decisions I’ve made in my life and how grateful I am that I have made some decision’s over others. For I may have done some revolting things over the years, which still to this day, cut deeper then any knife could. Yet it makes me think more and more about who I am, and what I’m capable of doing for society. I can change it for the better, give it something that it deserves, and give it a hope that I so want society to so desperately have. Yet alas it is something that I need to focus my life on, and my life has always been a mishmash of me being unable to motivate myself to do anything productive.
This isn’t a blog for me anymore, its something understand why I do the things I do. Mainly because I cant do it on my own. I don’t do it to understand myself better but to understand how I can be understood. Which seems like a anomaly in an of itself, because if someone else can understand me, then I have become a victim of a society that neglects itself enough that it can be understood more than it can be identified.
Again, this no longer a blog about me spitting my writing out for the sake of writing, cause I haven’t put a single game review up, but if you could only see my saved folder, and all the crap that I have in there. The simplest answer to the gaming question is that its really something near and dear to me and I can’t let it become something that I really get bored with.
On the musical tip I will probably be writing more about the songs that have made me feel something over the last 5 months, yes since the end of last semester. Why, because this summer was something special for me, not exactly sure what that special something was, but it gave me something to look forward to, in the coming future.
Song’s of the moment
“Countdown”- Phoenix, Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix
“Wolcott”- Vampire Weekend, Vampire Weekend
“In My Sleep”- Joe Budden, The Padded Room
Monday, July 13, 2009
im a complicated being...
The future is unclear for me. Yes, that is how I start the first blogpost after a couple of months of silence. But I guess I can expect that from myself now, a self-loathing fool of a human being. Yet, me wallowing in my own idiocies and misconceptions have lead me to this conclusion: the human race is comprised of a self-implicating mistakes that, for the most part, didn’t need to occur. Had the offending party been keen enough to recognize their misgivings, it is a fair assumption that they would have understood that they were, with out a doubt in their minds as well as mine, mistaken in some way shape or form. Wow, that was certainly long-winded and pretentious to no end, but alas it needed to be this and not another grouping of words that had no context in reference to what they actually mean in context to society as it stands today.
Now if you understood what that last sentence said or meant for that matter, seek help, quick! Yet if the ideas are vague and slightly indecipherable then I commend you because you have began to understand the ways in which someone’s (me) psyche actually works. It is a complex yet manageable mish mash of ideas and concepts that I need to explicate for no other reason then to get it out of my head.
These thoughts that I speak about, they are more mine then anything I have every possessively owned. They are the reason I have stuck around in this almost meaningless existence as a writer and or journalist. These thoughts though, I have never really been able to articulate them as something that people would want to read or look at for prolonged periods of time. So, that’s why im going to again try something with my writing. As in attempt new things that should keep some people interested in what I have to say or even care at all. These new things will be essentially like newspaper op-ed pieces ( I Hope) that take an almost biased persons objective take on things. What that means is I will attempt to write things that I feel to be important, and at the same time discuss its need for reform if need be.
Well that’s all I will continue to write, because well this took me long enough as is so hopefully ill write again soon, for all of those who care to read.
Now if you understood what that last sentence said or meant for that matter, seek help, quick! Yet if the ideas are vague and slightly indecipherable then I commend you because you have began to understand the ways in which someone’s (me) psyche actually works. It is a complex yet manageable mish mash of ideas and concepts that I need to explicate for no other reason then to get it out of my head.
These thoughts that I speak about, they are more mine then anything I have every possessively owned. They are the reason I have stuck around in this almost meaningless existence as a writer and or journalist. These thoughts though, I have never really been able to articulate them as something that people would want to read or look at for prolonged periods of time. So, that’s why im going to again try something with my writing. As in attempt new things that should keep some people interested in what I have to say or even care at all. These new things will be essentially like newspaper op-ed pieces ( I Hope) that take an almost biased persons objective take on things. What that means is I will attempt to write things that I feel to be important, and at the same time discuss its need for reform if need be.
Well that’s all I will continue to write, because well this took me long enough as is so hopefully ill write again soon, for all of those who care to read.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
well... this is the end...
It's not a bad thing, this is the end to my idiotic ways of not paying attention. An end to me being unable to get the courage to stand up and do something. An end to me not reading between the lines of the bullshit and hate. An End... to whatever i seem incapable of doing nothing about.
So yeah this is the blog post that i put out after, oh 2 months of silence, its not like i gave a damn about school... should i have?
So yeah this is the blog post that i put out after, oh 2 months of silence, its not like i gave a damn about school... should i have?
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