Later old friend. 1up R.I.P.

I post this because it is well, A fucked situation. I don’t think anyone from 1up reads this but, here goes…
For the last 2 years I’ve delved into gaming more then I had before. It was like I had found my niche. What had developed that niche was, frankly, good writing, and over the past two years I’ve learnt from probably the best and brightest around. Aside from things like the times or the journal, 1up was probably some of the greatest writing on the net. Writers like Jeff Green and Shawn Elliott are were phenomenal inspirations to me. These guys did what they loved every day and they were amazing at it, as well as being some of the smartest people around. They I had my heart set on achieving my dream, a low level legal expert for a consulting firm (I aim lower then most, what can I say). Then came people like Dan Hsu, who I am officially ripping off my integrity from. Crispin Boyer, the fucking funniest and most insightful writer around. Finally came the 1up fm crew, Anthony Gallegos, Nick Suttner, Phillip Kollar, and a bunch of the other fellows that wrote and spoke on the podcast. These people have affected me innumerably, not only with their insight into the gaming world but of their insight on life its self.
Now, to get into the bullshit: Why fire all that I truly looked up to with inspiration. Well I guess it was the fault of Ziff and their dumb ass marketing team but regardless, it still hurts to see people that you have been interacting with for the last 2 years shown the door. I honestly, don’t know what to say besides, thanks for the great times and the education.
This is a continuation of my confessional. I know it doesn’t seem like it but: This experience has made me stronger, and happier for that matter, mainly because from the ruins arises a bunch of fantastic new endeavors (rebel FM!), and me really going hardcore into writing. I know it doesn’t seem like it but writing this takes me for-fucking-ever, but im getting better at it. So I leave today on a not that I was hoping I wouldn’t have but, a somber one.
PS- on the movie tip I just saw eagle eye and Death race. During the former I fell asleep halfway through, and the latter I really liked as a mindless action film.

Take Two!
Well that was a bomb of a first take, but you’ll never know cause, I hit Crtl+A then delete on this document. In other words I didn’t like how it was going so, I canned it. Regardless I’m back and primed as ever… actually my plans for the day fell apart and I didn’t really have much to do, then I remembered I had a blog, and here I am. Now, what I was talking about in my last post was a bunch of , insignificant, unbecoming, and very true, facts about myself.
The fact of the matter is that I am scared of what I can become. I don’t know how to react to the people around me when they do something out of the social norm. Fuck, I don’t know how to react when they are doing the most normal things in the world! Maybe that is why I can’t have anything but friendships with anyone. I don’t know if it’s me or it’s my fear of rejection but it’s really getting to me. I fear that as a, out of touch with the modern times, Nineteen year old I will never be able to ask someone out without being on the verge of throwing up. I sound like Im repeating myself, to none other then myself.
Even so, I wanted to write this in order to let it out, as well as see if I was still motivated enough to write. Clearly I still have the latter. As for the former I don’t know if I can express myself properly. It seems like a frightening notion, that a grown person who was able to present a supreme court case in front of people and know what he is talking about, cannot ask a person of the opposite sex whether or not she wants to have coffee, WHY IS IT SO HARD! I assume it’s my attitude towards life, I don’t think we should be living cause we are an inherently evil species, but it never hurt to actually have someone besides family to really, truly care about. I just want someone to care about.
Well that is all for the evening. Scrubs are finally on again and I’m almost done with Entourage Season 4. Huzzah!!!

part one of my confessional

I sit here today, in my pajamas, on the verge of enjoying the third season of Entourage, and I can’t seem to put my finger on why this year may be different. Well, maybe I should preface the reason for which I’m actually writing this list. The answer is short and simple, 2008, for me, was a year of faults and stupid decisions, and I don’t plan on repeating those again in this, the new year.
The first stupid thing that I did was I got my priorities out of place. I put school on the backburner. For some reason, I guess it was subconscious; I got the impression that I was smarter then the system that I, a student of, first physics, now political science, knew more then. Boy, was I wrong. The idea that, I student could know more then these people whom; had gone to these prestigious colleges, that frankly I will probably never get into; and know more then them about the things they are teaching me is baffling. So I write this part today as a confessional, to myself, as well as admitting my flaws.
So over a period of the next few weeks I shall (hopefully) crank out a piece each day and in those pieces I shall try and reconstruct myself as a person, by admitting my, flaws and weaknesses, and by revealing what I could’ve done, like not been a dumb shit coward and asked someone out. So to all of you reading thanks, and this will get better.

I think i understand A little better...

I jist realized why i can't pay antention to something like this blog, four letters and a test.

I don't know for sure, but it would explain a lot. I don't think anyone actually reads or see this blog so i don't even case what anyone's response might be.

fuck it

Ok people i know i said that i would post regularly, but shit the only time that i get to post is in my poli sci class. Regardless this is part of a post that i was on the cusp of unleashing, but alas im pissed of at our society :
Fuck me it takes me forever to even get around to writing this blog. Now the notion that i just started this blog to talk about bullshit, is bullshit. I started this thing to get my word out and because jeff green, my hero, had one just like it. one thing that i have fully planned to initiate was the fact that this would be a place that i could post reviews of all three, music, movies and especially games.
Now I’m not out to get hired by some site or place, but i am here to drop my two cents. My reviews will and bette be bias toward someone who takes forever to finish a game because I’m either working or im at school.

Now that im over discussing that i want to talk about a topic that i feel is necessary, the time in which we live in. This time has become something of a joke. We as either a citizen....


This wouldn't work though because i would go about ranting . So i say one thing, it is that the world lies alot so look at all the of the facts especially if has to deal with the media and its reporting on the world and politics.

shit that took a while.

Alright I’m pretty sure no one reads this blog. Yes, i hear crickets. Regardless, I want to write, the content is still up in the air, so let me yammer.
The first thing I want to shpeel about is the fact that I am sitting in probably mt favorite class and procrastinating, Who the hell in there right mind does that. I mean i can only blame myself for doing something like this but shit. I cannot figure out what cause me to loose focus so quickly. Alas it seems i have already lost the attention of the poor soul who stubbled upon this sad husk of a blog. Could it be ADD that I didn’t know that i have because for some reason I can never concentrate on.... wait what was i talking about. Oh yeah, Ae forget it, it’s a rant about myself anyway.
So the another thing that I wanted to try and “discuss” would be the fact that, YOU ALL NEED TO VOTE. I don’t give a rats ass who its for, but preferably the right choice for the country. Still this election is one of those things that seems batshit crazy to say the least. I mean, Palin alone is a topic that i can make at least fifty posts about. the in game ads are the ones that get to me though. Obama’s Face and the hope sign showing up un burnout and battlefield is crazy, but it proves the legitimacy of the gaming population.
now that im finally at gaming i need to get stuff off my chest... im playing way to many games at one time to call it legitimate in any definition of gaming. But thats a post for a little later

Digging myself deeper

So I tend to write blogs and leave them as drafts this one will be published. If not well you'll never know. But im hear to dish about the world and procrastinate.
So, what the hell is there to talk about!? For one thing the world is going to shit. Oh now I have no ones attention, but here goes. The economy died in the last two weeks. the people are all running around wondering what the hell there going to do. Me, I'm going to bath in the glory of having a retail job that pays the bills and leaves enough money for me to further my hobbies (i.e. Games, Comics and computer hardware). But Where does it end?
In two years will my meaningless job at Best Buy, enable me to sustain my life, i highly doubt it. So, why am i so negative, because this is my blog and its meant to get stuff of my chest.
Now to the good stuff, the games and movies ( and politics for the haters). The first thing that i need to mention is something that i wrote in another post that i neglected to publish. The Freakin Star Wars Force Unleashed, the game has problems but that doesn't make it a bad game. The physics engine does't really stick out as too impressive, the combat is lack luster and buggy. That didn't however stop it from being fun, yes within all my hate, the game was fun, and it is absolutly worth a rent and or borrow from an unknowing friend.
Now to the good, no, FANtastic game, LittleBigPlanet. This is one of those games that will make you smile. I would just make sackboy jump and interact with the evironment, and smile and i haven't done that since Super Mario Galaxy.
Oh shit this thing has been sitting here for two hours, so im going to post and finish up later